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Karen

I'm Still Here

Karen, known to her daughter as Momma, is Austin’s mother and a formative presence in her understanding of race, education, and self-determination. Her choice of the name Austin was a deliberate response to discrimination in hiring: she and Austin’s father hoped that employers seeing the name on an application would assume the applicant was a white man and grant her an interview. The decision was practical, but its consequences made visible how race and gender could shape who was imagined as a candidate before anyone met her.

Naming and the Employment Barrier

When Austin was young, she confronted Karen about why she had been given the name Austin. She already knew that it came from her grandmother’s maiden name, but wanted to understand why her parents had chosen it. Karen answered by explaining that they had liked the name and understood that people encountering it before meeting their child would likely picture a white man. They wanted Austin to have a chance to get through the door to a job interview.

For Austin, the explanation connected earlier moments of confusion and misrecognition. People called out the name and expected a boy; in the library, a woman continued to doubt Austin even after she answered questions about her card. Karen’s account helped her daughter recognize that the librarian’s disbelief was not only about gender. A name associated with a white man seemed, to the librarian, incompatible with the Black girl standing before her. The name could cloak Austin in an assumption of whiteness, but it could not make her actual identity legible in advance.

The parents’ strategy continued to work in the limited sense they intended: Austin later describes receiving emails and voicemails addressed to Mr. Austin Brown and reaching the interview stage of hiring processes. Yet the interview itself could turn the promise of the name into a new test. When Austin entered a room, interviewers looked from her to her résumé, visibly revising their expectations; she had often explained in her cover letters that she was a Black woman, but still surprised hiring committees in person. Karen’s choice could open the route to an interview without removing the racial assumptions waiting at its end. Its significance lies in that double effect: it was a protective response to unequal conditions and a recurring demonstration of those conditions.

A Family Argument About Integration

Karen’s racial analysis also appears in a family gathering in her mother’s Cleveland home, where an argument about integration unfolded around the adults’ table. Austin, then eleven or twelve, watched from the children’s table through gaps in a short bookshelf filled with her grandmother’s vintage bells. From that partial vantage point, she saw Karen debate the men across from her, her hands moving as she spoke.

Karen questioned whether integration had actually helped Black Americans. When an uncle challenged her with the alternative of continued segregation, she clarified that she was not advocating a return to it. Her concern was what integration had cost Black communities: Black-owned businesses, including doctors’ and dentists’ offices, grocery stores, and auto mechanics, lost customers as people began going to white businesses. She also questioned whether Black teachers might have remained in greater numbers if the demand had been for equal school funding rather than for Black children to be bused to white schools.

The force of the exchange is in Karen’s distinction between ending formal separation and securing equality. She does not treat segregation as a desirable answer; she asks why integration was made to require the abandonment of institutions and resources Black communities had built. The family’s argument gives Austin a way to encounter history as a live question rather than a settled sequence of progress. At school, she was expected to learn the names of Rosa Parks and Martin Luther King Jr., feel grateful for integrated classrooms, and move on. At home, the discussion did not end with gratitude: it examined what had been lost and what might have been demanded instead.

Supporting Austin’s Choices in School

Karen’s influence is also present in the choices Austin made as a student. When assignments invited a choice of subject, Austin selected Black authors for book reports and Black history for history papers. Her parents left the decisions to her, rather than prescribing either the safer academic answer or the more affirming one. That support did not spare her the consequences of choosing: she could give a teacher the expected account, qualify it by making clear that it came from the textbook, or state a correction and risk losing part of a letter grade.

The example of Christopher Columbus captures the tension. Austin sometimes noted that the land he supposedly discovered was already inhabited; at other times, she framed the claim as what the textbook said. She could enjoy knowing more than her teachers while also recognizing that telling the truth might cost her academically. Her parents’ decision to leave the choice with her made her responsible for weighing those risks, but it also treated her judgment as her own. Karen’s documented role here is not to resolve that dilemma for Austin; it is part of a parental stance that allows her daughter to decide when to conform, qualify, or challenge the account before her.

Character and Narrative Significance

Karen emerges through a small number of revealing episodes rather than through a full account of her life. In one, she calmly explains a practical naming decision to a child who wants more than the family story behind the name. In another, she argues with relatives about the economic and educational costs of integration. Taken together, the scenes present a mother who equips her daughter with both an explanation of how racial bias operates and room to form her own responses to it.

The difference between Karen’s intention and the outcome of the name is especially important. She and Austin’s father hope to secure access to an interview by anticipating an employer’s racial assumptions; later, Austin’s visible presence makes those assumptions surface in the interview room. The measure of the strategy is therefore not simply whether it succeeds. It shows how a family may have to work within a biased system to gain an opportunity, even when that opportunity does not guarantee acceptance.

Karen’s family debate offers a related lesson about the language of progress. Her argument asks Austin to consider not only the formal end of segregation but also the community assets lost through the particular terms of integration. Her support for Austin’s academic choices extends that inquiry into everyday schooling, where a textbook’s version of history can carry its own pressure to comply. Across these moments, Karen helps shape a perspective attentive to the distance between official ideals and lived consequences: a name may promise access, an integrated classroom may be called progress, and a conventional answer may earn a better grade, but each claim must be examined against what it asks Black people to surrender or endure.

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